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why sometimes out of the blue
i feel so low
so useless
so depressed?
why do i want to sit and cry?
when there is nothing
wrong?
why do i feel so uneasy
so sad??
why do i have pain
when i sit and think
i just wanna cry it all away
why do i feel this way??
nothing happened yet
to make me feel like this
is just comes out of the blue
why me?
am i the only one that this happens to?
why does the pain go so deep??
where did this pain come from?
is it just a phase or is it always goin to be like this??
why all of a sudden
im so depressed?

DepressedI sit here alone listening to the rain,
trying to believe the words everyone says.
"youre Pretty" "I love you" are phrases I often hear,
but who really means it?
and who is sincere?
I doubt you would even tell me the truth,
so youll tell me what will make me feel better,
but if it isnt the truth,
then why should I care?
Eventually in the end,
Ill probably get hurt,
That always seems to happen,
I get treated like dirt.
So next time you want to tell me you care,
Make sure you mean it,
And that its sincere.

DepressedYou go home,
Saying your life sucks,
Remembering all the bad things in one day,
how many horrible feelings you had in one day,
and wondered how it was possible, in one day.
Looking at everyone around you,
knowing everyone despises you,
hates you,
talks about you.
You try to be confident,
you try to ignore the sh**,
but in the end you know you cant
These people tear you apart,
not knowing you have feelings,
they ignore you
ruin your life,
and they dont even know it.
You try to ignore the sh**
but in the end you know you cant,
because these people tear you apart,
and dont even care.

depressed...im feeling down,
to say the least,
depression is hanging over me,
like a great big beast...

nobody can understand,
they never ever will,
my happiness is dead,
i feel like i could kill

i dont want anybody to know,
i will lose many friends,
so i just sit with my dog,
trying to ignore the emotional bends

my family thinks im a wimp,
wich i think i might be,
but my friends say im not,
as they give me a cup of tea

i tell them to stop worrying,
theres nothing they can do
except leave me alone,
to wallow im self-pity...

DepressedI mean depressed where you don't care whether you live or die. Where you don't care what happened to you because the sad thing is you've experienced worse. No matter where you go you still hurt. It doesn't matter who you surround yourself with it still hurts. No matter how much you've laughed that day, you still cry yourself to sleep every night.

depressedI live this life
Like a normal person
I hide my emotions from everyone
On the inside I'm dying
Screaming for air
for attention
even for love

I want to be alone right now
I want to see the light
I want to be alone right now
just for tonight

Maybe I'm crazy
Mabye I'm in love
but whenever I have feelings
It just isn't enough.
I want to give up. I want to get out

Depressed

Today I'm feeling rather depressed,
And life never seems to let me rest.
In the sky are only clouds,
There is no sunlight to be found.
Outside it has only rained,
And my happiness is drained.
I guess I will get over this,
And, this day, I won't miss.

A Depressed Girl

A depressed girl lives alone,
In her own world,
A depressed girl doesn't have any friends,
Only the covers she hugs at night,
A depressed girl sits in the dark,
Thinking of sad things,
A depressed girl sees things,
That people do not see,
She imagines things,
That scare,
And frighten her,
And make her sad,
A depressed girl cries an ocean,
That almost drowns her,
A depressed girl writes sad things,
That depresses and worries others,
A depressed girl needs help,
A depressed girl needs love.

DepressedBlood drips down onto the black roses of summertime.
Love is torn and the knives fall.
My body is broken with the nails of Hell.
I wish all of it was over and I could see
That you were never there.
Envisioning what my life could be,
Erasing what it was.
Gray is my world,
Gone is my soul,
Surrounded by my dark fate.
Bitter memories left in my heart
As I make my way down the path of Despair.

depressed...Not scarred physically
But inside the scars run deep,
Emotional scars that let the tears escape when no one is around.
Cut like a broken mirror
Forever looking into myself,
Trying to figure out what went wrong...

And then a voice tells me everything will be alright
I see your face and feel your touch,
And the pain eases.
You wipe my tears away,
And tell me not to worry...

And the scars begin to heal
I start to feel again, remembering what it means to cry
Remembering what it is to hate,
Remembering what it is to love...

Very slowly the scars begin to fade
And all the time you whisper,
That you will always be there
And everyth

DepressedI see the happy people around me
They smile and they carry on
But do they even see the one
Who feels nothing at all

Cold and lifeless inside my shell
Demons torturing me in my own personal hell
Do they even notice that I never wear a smile
Do they notice that I am a prisoner of my own mind

As I slowly fade and realize my fate to be
I wonder if then they will begin to see
That I was trapped inside my own mind
Fighting demons that I could not beat

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by ~Ebsie, Jun 27, 2007, 7:28:48 PM
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Once again all alone
I suppose I must deserve it
I'm clingy and annoying
Obnoxious and dense
Rash and silly
Lazy and obsessive
Sometimes I hate myself
I want to draw people in
But only push them away
I cry so much lately
Because everything hurts
Maybe I'm not meant to be happy
I force my smile
I fake my laugh
Does anyone notice?
Does anyone care?
It's not "Like Me" to be so
Depressed? Upset? Angry?
What is 'like me'?
Someone tell me
Because I don't know myself anymore
Once again, as before
I'm all alone

Depressedby ~Ebsie

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I wrote this last night...I was kinda depressed because this week has sucked...so I got rid of all my emotions paper...and I feel a lot better ^_^

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~Karou33 5 days ago Student Filmographer

That's me right now....

~RoosjeK May 18, 2013 Hobbyist

I wish i was brave enough to put it into words like this.

~Ebsie May 19, 2013

It's not so much being brave to put it into words. The only courage needed is letting others see it, which is not a requirement. I merely shared it in hopes of helping others see they are not alone and that they may feel very differently one day, like I do right now.

~RoosjeK May 19, 2013 Hobbyist

yeah that's a good point - about sharing it. and thanks - i do feel less alone.

~Ebsie May 20, 2013

<3 No worries. If all else fails, express yourself in any creative way you can think of. Be it writing poetry or art, even if you think it's awful. It'll still be honest

~Flower7052 Apr 7, 2013

I read this and realised that every line is exactly how I feel! Your such a good writer - its beautiful

~Ebsie Apr 7, 2013

Thank you

. Also, I hope you feel much better soon, much like I do

~Flower7052 Apr 8, 2013

I hope so too but I think it will be a while yet, I cant remember the last time I felt happy/normal!

~Ebsie Apr 8, 2013

Well, it's not so much about being normal lol. It's knowing you're an oddity, that despite how alone you feel that you aren't really {misery loves company} and being okay with it. Self-acceptance is very important. It's hard for others to love or respect you if you don't feel that way toward yourself. I'm not saying you need to be self centered but some love and acceptance goes a long way. I know I am odd but I love it. I am me. I am not always happy but I am not always sad. Sometimes I may feel this way but it doesn't stay that way. I find art and music help a lot, particular with negative feelings like sadness and aggression. It really helps you to vent

~Flower7052 Apr 8, 2013

thanks! I do like myself but I have never been accepted for who I am mainly because I get high grades (so people say I'm a geek) and I have a lot of eczema scars (so people freak out and don't want to go near me. I dont really get anyone to talk but I try!

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